About
My Gender Identity
I AM A WOMAN. Specifically, a Trans woman! Before you judge and misgender me, calling me any of those extremely offensive terms you learnt from porn (i.e. shemale, tranny, ladyboy, transvestite, Futanari...), know that I didn't just wake up one day and decide I am trans, I've feminine ever since I could remember. In fact, I seriously considered medically transitioning almost a decade earlier but had to go through many years of therapy and self-reflexion in order to feel 100% ready and certain of my decision. Being trans in itself is not for the faint of heart, it's an extremely hard and dangerous life, no one in their right mind would choose to do it if they didn't struggle with debilitating gender dysphoria and I can assure you that no one would permanently alter their body just for sex/porn... That's stupid!
Last thing, I get these questions a lot and they're just as ignorant and hurtful as the slur names (that's a big no-no):
What is your real name (aka=dead name)?
You are not trans because you don't have boobs.
What are your preferred pronouns? (which implies that using my correct/personal pronouns is optional)
I'd love to write more on the topic but I am just going to go ahead and leave this link if you feel like educating yourself a bit more: https://genderdysphoria.fyi
Who I Am
I've always been super passionate about BDSM and especially female domination, which I started exploring in my very early adulthood. I knew around that time that I was a hedonist and that vanilla is simply not my favourite flavour, therefore I went out my way to constantly seek out new experiences to fuel my desires and learn more about the arts of domination.
While on this wonderful journey, I was very grateful for the opportunity to meet and be coached by some of the best and most skilled Pro Dommes in the field, one of them (which I shall not name) had almost the role of my 2nd mother. Besides our weekly BDSM sessions, she cared so much about making me the best version of myself and I think she did a great job at that! She was insanely beautiful, had an amazing personality and will always be in my heart.
Fast forward to around the time of starting my transition, I became more confident in my skin and I truly felt like a Goddess the more and more I saw those little feminine traits pop up in the mirror... Contrary to the majority of trans folks who make changes in their self-expression in a very long and gradual process, I had started presenting fully feminine in public before I even went on hormones, I simply did not give a fuck about society's opinion because I had absolutely no one to report to. Half my days were spent taking public transit, walking in big crowds and I literally never had a single negative reation! I wore cute dresses and leggings with a big bulge, used men's bathrooms all the time (I still do, just to piss off the transphobes!). It felt so empowering and I think I gave so much "Alpha" vibes that the men knew better than to fuck with me haha.
They say that the universe sometimes tests you by throwing everything at you at the same time and I'm beginning to think it's true... I was going through a big break up (my ex gf decided to leave me somehow after transitioning, go figure), I didn't have any friends to begin with but I got disowned by literally all my family who were everything to me, lost my therapist of +5 years, went off medication after many years... and I still decided to keep going through the process of my transition because I was determined not to let anything get in my way this time!
My goal to become a Dominatrix surfaced a fear years earlier, it's funny because I often watched femdom porn pre-hrt while fantasising about being the Domme performer, never the sub. Was I tripping? Well, my toxic ex didn't believe I could do it when I first told her I want to have a Dominatrix career, as well as many others. They thought I was "too soft, "too insecure", "too weak"... Oh well.
Fast forward to about 3-4 months before posting my first professional ad, I was addicted to doing non-transactional domination sessions every day with a variety of people I met online in exchange of their non-sexual services. Initially all I wanted was to find a new gf to fill the void my ex left behind. After all, she was a big part of my life... I wasn't trying to be "Dom" but literally everyone saw me as such so I said fuck it and decided to go all in.
Needless to say, I am a very reserved person, so obviously picky about my personal subs and which people I would bring into my life... Using various personal application forms, kink questionnaires and interviews, I was able to recruit dozens of valuable servants who made my life so much easier! I had people for my nails, makeup, cooking, errands, lifts, baths... you name it! Hell, I didn't have to dress up myself or touch my boots thanks to the foot fetishists lol. I was simply a Goddess.
So that's when my next chapter began...